the happy little world of miss ktp!

So... week 9 furloughed and in lockdown, how did that happen?! The time has flown by but also crawled at the same time. Stuff I took for granted at the start of the year - gigs, wrestling, the pub, going for meals, sitting in church, feel like a million years ago and a totally different world. Having a bit of a "meh" day today so taking it easy and just relaxing. Thought I'd try to make it easier by thinking about my TILT... 💗 sitting here writing my post with Tommy lying on me and snoring away 💗 listening to mum record her sermon for the next online church service 💗 Selling Sunset on Netflix - the trashy TV I needed 💗 RocknRoll Bride's Confidence Club 💗 reading my book in the sunshine 💗 freshly baked scones for lunch with jam and cream 💗 a sunny garden centre visit with mum earlier in the week and being able to chose plants to buy for her for her birthday 💗 watering the lawn morning and night while listening to a podcast and drinking a cuppa 💗 Quizzlemania =...

Who knew when I started this blog in India as a way to keep in touch with you all I'd finally make it to post 1000! It's fitting that the post is a positive one too, so here's to another 1000! Here are the things I've been loving... 💗 post 1000! 💗 morning alarm going off at 8am, but not emerging till 9 💗 phone catch up chats with friends 💗 enjoying wearing outfits for me even though noone else will see them 💗 super sexy spikey high heeled boots 💗 surprise parcels from friends 💗 expected parcels from online shopping 💗 reminiscing over old photos 💗 travel journal projects 💗 tentative new plans for the future 💗 going for my lunchtime walk with Tommy and letting him choose the route 💗 finding new rainbows everyday in windows, on walls, on the floor 💗 finding chalked out hopsotch on the pavement & hopping as I walk along 💗 making Mince Pies with mum in May - cos why not?! 💗 getting to eat some of the raw pastry 💗 helping mum in the garden in the sunshine ...

I've not forgotten about you all, promise! I keep wanting to type something on here, to update you all, but I'm stumped... I've got nothing to say. Life just feels like a continuous Groundhog Day. Today was a real uni duvet day, it was rainy and grey outside so we all curled up on the sofa, read, watched tv and napped. Bliss. Wish I had more to say, but that's it really! Hope you're all staying safe! Ttfn x

One minute I'm ok, all Positive Parker, being a lockdown lady of leisure... the next I'm in a muddle, feeling totally overwhelmed and being a total Negative Nelly. It's exhausting. I know I'm not the only one feeling like this on an emotional rollercoaster but wow! Friday was a particularly bad one, I got the news I knew would be coming but was clinging onto a tiny (unrealistic) slither of hope that it would be ok, my trip to Berlin with 2 of my Frank Turner Fangirls was cancelled, first the flights, then Frank announced the 4day festival Lost Evenings was cancelled, then I had to sort my hotel cancellation. All 3 of us knew it was coming but it was a sad day, at least we're planning for Lost Evenings 5 to be one hell of a celebration, even if it's in Australia (side note - please don't be in Oz, I can't afford it!!). On top of this my Lewis Capaldi gig in July was cancelled as well as the Kasabian gig in June. As a busy social butterfly I'm fin...

Well we're in this lockdown for at least another 3 weeks so thought I'd try to look on the bright side of life (di dum di dum di dum di dum)... Here are my Things I Love Thursday. 💗 waking up at 9am and not having to get up at 6:45am 💗 time for Headspace 💗 sunshine 💗 opening my curtains to a stunning garden thanks to mum and dad 💗 being able to hug mum and dad any time I want 💗 lunch in the summerhouse with the sound of the waterfall going into the pond 💗 Tommy cuddles 💗 online quizes coming out of my ears 💗 stopping off to watch tiny lambs in the fields for a moment 💗 lots of Zoom catch ups 💗 planning more Zoom catch ups 💗 new projects and new challenges 💗 getting back into puzzle books and colouring in 💗 rocking my new lilac tracksuit loungewear 💗 knowing it's Thursday thanks to Frank Turner doing his weekly live gig on Facebook (missing gigs and wrestling soooo much right now) 💗 the "clap for carers" moment at 8pm every Thursday and seeing th...

Well first big news is.... the house sale completed yesterday! Was a bittersweet feeling but I know it's for the best. It sucked not being around to help Adam tidy the house and hand the keys over but in a way it probably made it slightly easier to distance myself from it all up here. I'm so thankful to have my little haven at my folks now more than ever, it's the only little spot I've got at the moment, I've got no official home and a nice amount of money in my bank account. Now just need to steer clear of ASOS! Work called me yesterday to say I've been furloughed for another 2 or 3 weeks at least so I'm glad to have a rough plan even though everything keeps changing and who knows how long it'll all last. I treated myself to a dot to dot mindfulness mandalas book and it's so addictive! I'm off to sit in the summerhouse, with the doors open wide, a rock night playlist blasting out, my dot to dot and a cuppa! Keep staying safe and have a goo...

I've realised I need to escape to KtPland more than I thought. I'm so lucky that I get to be with my folks and Tommy, but there's only so much of their tv choices and music I can listen to before I find myself moping on the sofa scrolling through Instagram. Now my tv is all set up and I have Netflix in my bedroom I need to start taking myself up there to watch my "trash" programs and catching up on YouTube bits, Jenna Marbles I miss you! I also need to make more use of the summer house for podcasts, reading and letter writing. I've got it in my head that I don't like my own company so I need to be around everyone all the time, but maybe I don't,  maybe I do need "me time" every now and then.  Right the sun's out, I've got my book, Grazia and a cuppa, I'm off to chill. Ttfn x

Feeling weird today. Woke up today with that horrible feeling in the pit of my stomach. The past week has kind of felt like I was just on holiday and that everything would be back to normal in a week or so. I feel like it's just hit me again that we have no idea how long this will go on for and although I have my folks around me and friends online I just feel so very very lonely and isolated. Lots of people are happy staying in and relaxing but I'm missing my gigs, the wrestling, eating out, going to the pub and seeing lots of different people along the way. I've had some video chats, Houseparty games, Zoom silliness and phone calls but they're just not the same. I know there's nothing I can do about it and I just sound like a Moaning Minnie but I just needed to get it off my chest. Bleugh. Ttfn x

I feel like I've made a bit of peace with this whole situation now, I've stopped being the stroppy "life's not fair" teenager. Ok I'm not seeing my mates, I'm single, I'm not in London, I can't go to my gigs / wrestling / pub... but I do get to hang out with my folks and have family time, which I wouldn't normally get with my busy 24/7-must-do-as-much-as-possible social life. Thankfully I get on so well with them (even though dad and I know how to wind each other up in seconds!) and it's actually quite nice being with them, and it's 10000000000000000000 times better than being on my own and stuck in a room in a flatshare in London. I've managed to make my old bedroom feel more like my space, all that's left to do is paint my walls pink, the ceiling blue, put up all my old Steps posters and hang CDs from the ceiling and we're sorted! The other big thing I've done is set myself a little weekly planner. I've realis...

Wednesday sucked, there's nothing else to say about that matter. Mum and I drove down to pack up my life, most to go into storage, some to come back with me. The bigger bits we've had to leave there for the new people, we'd hoped to sell bits or take other bits to the tip but due to the lockdown we can't do either. Even though it took over 8 hours it still felt rushed trying to pack up 4 years of living in that house. It hurt more than anything saying bye to the house and Adam and knowing I won't get to be there on moving day, for Adam and I to support each other through it, or be able to put my own stuff into storage when they come tomorrow. After 1.5 years of everything dragging on, the end of it has just felt horribly rushed and abrupt. As of today I woke up to the news that the government have advised house moves go on hold. We're still pushing and hoping that it'll continue, but they have said that if anyone in the chain shows signs of the virus we h...

...you wait almost 2 years for a post, then 2 come along at the same time. Well after BoJo's statement last night of STAY AT HOME.... I stayed at home... and cried. I'm still at my parents but don't have enough clothes (cue a miserable time on ASOS, who knew I'd ever not enjoy online shopping?!), didn't have enough meds to stay up here indefinitely and also wasn't sure if the move was still happening, "just a little bump in the road", not sure how many more little bumps I can take tbh. This morning, after not much sleep, things are a bit clearer. The Drs are sending me a prescription to a local pharmacy, the removal men are still scheduled to come Saturday and the move is still going ahead for 9th April it seems. Now just the hurdle of packing my stuff up. I think tomorrow Dad and I are going to have to drive down and spend the day packing boxes for storage and bags to take back to my folks. The family that I was planning to rent my room from ...

Well it's been a while hasn't it... wonder if anyone will even read this?! Hellooooooooo out there! I never thought that when I'd dust off this old blog it would be in such different circumstances. Since my last post in 2018 my life has totally flipped upside down. To cut a mega long story short.... - Adam and I have split up, we're still really good mates and there for each other but just not as husband and wife. It was such a heart-breaking decision but it's the right one. - We put our house up for sale about a year and a half ago and thanks to Brexit (anyone remember when that was all anyone spoke about?!) and muppets trying to get mortgages they couldn't afford we had 4 sales fall through... we're currently on our 5th sale which (touch wood) is completing April 9th (virus permitting). - Tommy has gone to live with my folks, it was such a hard decision to know what to do but at least we know he's being well looked after (read totally spoilt), ...

Wow where did the last 6months go?! So far 2018 has been an ace one... not stopped as usual... but loved it all the same!  At the end of June Adam and I went to Russia with two friends... We went to Moscow and St Petersburg and we loved it. I knew it would be great but it was just so much nicer, friendlier and brighter than expected... check it out! late night flights... early morning landings... Greatest Showman binges (watched it 4 times in total - how amazing is this film?!)... lazy sleep breakfast... sunny morning walks... 40 winks on a park bench (due to 28hours of being awake!)... finally being able to check into our holiday apartment... another 40winks / 2hours kip... supermarket explorations... Bolshoi sightseeing... marvelous metro stations... jazzy shopping centers... twinkly lights everywhere... red square at night...  Day 2... wonderfully magical markets... pug cushion purchases... vodka for lunch... P&S anniversary dinner... Russian pug.....

Happy New Year! Let's make 2018 an ace one!  First let's take a step back in time... here's what I got up to in December... Christmas jumpers begin... Brick Lane Birthday curry... Christmas market mulled wine.. Christmas cards for pugs and people alike... popcorn pinching... mulled wine slurping... endless Christmas trees... advent calendar gifts... fun in the snow... not so fun slipping in the snow... Ceroc Christmas party... Progress Wrestling awesomeness... Tommy vs tree... secret santa... Exploding Kittens and sticky toffee pudding... Christmas lunch guinea pigs... pug party... pub catchups... feed the birds, tuppence a bag... work doo shots... another Ceroc party... birthday pug walk... Christmas Eve Christingle... Christmas Day presents... Boxing Day sales... posh paint buying... dining room transformation... mulled wine mugs... NYE family fun... Here's a little extra bonus clip of our Christmas too... I'm currently working through my Resol...

Huzzah we made it! And one day before the end of 2017! Here's what November had in store for me... going Greek... misty sunny morning... old friend catch up... Ally Pally fireworks... chilly hungover BBQ weather... bus w**ker... catching up on The Archers... new phone case greatness... work views... Bills date night... Waffle House pugs... Remembrance Sunday... crazy mobility scooter OAP... doggy grotto... Christmas tree plan... Frank Turner New Slang... chilly walks... P family catchup... Afternoon tea - ladies wot lunch... dinner date with Becca... Tommy Dog in the office... Spoons curry club... Steps prep... Steptacular Wembley... confused rock/pop princess... Groillaz in Brighton... Demoing at Ceroc... Zara Black Friday haul - yoink!... Snickers says it all... I'd forgotten how much I loved November! Ayways, not sure if I'll get to post tomorrow so Happy New Year guys! Roll on to bigger and better things in 2018! Whoop! Ttfn x

In September I headed off to Paris once more to visit Premiere Vision & Texworld to see all the up and coming fabrics and make a selection... realised I've never really shown what these trips involve so thought I'd let you have a sneak peak into our 3 day Paris trip... Ttfn x

Well that's it for another year! Phew! Hope y'all had a good one! Now it's time for that weird limbo between Christmas and New Year where no one knows what they're doing or what day it is! To confuse you even more we're going to time travel back to October and look at another of my One Second videos..... nearly there folks... stay with me... one to go! garden prep... snapchat silliness... waiting for a train... new hair colour... another day another dollar... Scroobius Pip awesomeness... India girlies plus couples and babies brunch... new ring hunt... tube traveling... flu jab owwie... Tommy craziness... Nandos date night... work drinks... Houlker catch ups... the week to come... Reel Big Fish gig... the Ceroc gang... lucky me got flowers... chippy tea... Tommy loving the work storeroom... stuck in Alcotraz with Anna... garden tidy up... skip arrival... fake grass aceness... found my Sports Direct mug - huzzah!... big shop... amazing Halloween shoes... Calpol ...

Nearly there... bear with me... two more months after this one then we're up to date and we'll go back to monthly (bi-monthly if you're lucky!) posting... phew! Now firstly this'll be my last post before Christmas so I hope all you lovely lot have a great time whatever you're doing stay safe and be happy. Right so September... here goes... Anniversary card snap... Engagement celebration drinks... Sunday roast catchups... Dishoom dinner date with Lou... must. not. drop. waffle... walkies... surprise date night... doggy daycare drive... brewdog pug takeover... Erin's birthday party... sunny evening stroll... Ceroc "sparkle and shine" party... belated birthday afternoon tea... road trip... Pokémon raiding... hospital waiting room... pass the parcel... #meh... Gay Paris... trade fair posing... button selecting and wine... Steps singalong... bedazzled Bob... Dame Diana Rigg at Elstree Studios... love note from Anna... Dave Hause rocking out... rare...

After the hustle and bustle of Michelle and Matt's wedding we decided to escape for a few days and went to Amsterdam... yup you guessed it... cue another One Second... come fly with me... cheeky pint... emergency exit briefing... off we go... soggy city walks... gem of a burger bar... swapping salad for chips (do I look like a salad gal?!)... morning walks... crazy crossings... confusingly posh tea... Anne Frank's House... special coffee shop... even more special brownie... sunny city walks... a not so special coffee shop... Amsterdammmm... brill Banksy exhibition... chilling on a grassy roof... evening strolls... matching anniversary cards (great minds think alike)... man walking a fridge... tulips... heading for the station... healthy lunch stop... Catfish airport style... home time...   Ttfn x

In August, my pal I've known the longest, Michelle, got married to a lovely chap called Matt. July saw us all see Michelle off with a fab hen party... it was a rainy start but nothing was going to dampen my spirits... tea was drunk by the gallon... followed by Prosecco and beer... trashy tv watching and gossiping... secret hen party decorating ready for the next day... cuppa tea in bed... surprise decorations... what party is complete without a giant inflatable cock?! (don't worry mum, not what you think :P)... more prosecco... garter making... nibbles and more plonk... escape room sadness... private room bowling fun... boiler maker awesomeness... Tiger Tiger fun and a much needed late night...  Then before we knew what was happening it was time to start the run up to the big day and finally the day itself. starting the road trip up north... rations along the way... stopping off to collect Michelle's mum... tea (what else when Michelle & I are involved?!)... 1 ...