the happy little world of miss ktp!

I've not forgotten about you all, promise! I keep wanting to type something on here, to update you all, but I'm stumped... I've got nothing to say. Life just feels like a continuous Groundhog Day. Today was a real uni duvet day, it was rainy and grey outside so we all curled up on the sofa, read, watched tv and napped. Bliss. Wish I had more to say, but that's it really! Hope you're all staying safe! Ttfn x

One minute I'm ok, all Positive Parker, being a lockdown lady of leisure... the next I'm in a muddle, feeling totally overwhelmed and being a total Negative Nelly. It's exhausting. I know I'm not the only one feeling like this on an emotional rollercoaster but wow! Friday was a particularly bad one, I got the news I knew would be coming but was clinging onto a tiny (unrealistic) slither of hope that it would be ok, my trip to Berlin with 2 of my Frank Turner Fangirls was cancelled, first the flights, then Frank announced the 4day festival Lost Evenings was cancelled, then I had to sort my hotel cancellation. All 3 of us knew it was coming but it was a sad day, at least we're planning for Lost Evenings 5 to be one hell of a celebration, even if it's in Australia (side note - please don't be in Oz, I can't afford it!!). On top of this my Lewis Capaldi gig in July was cancelled as well as the Kasabian gig in June. As a busy social butterfly I'm fin...

Well we're in this lockdown for at least another 3 weeks so thought I'd try to look on the bright side of life (di dum di dum di dum di dum)... Here are my Things I Love Thursday. 💗 waking up at 9am and not having to get up at 6:45am 💗 time for Headspace 💗 sunshine 💗 opening my curtains to a stunning garden thanks to mum and dad 💗 being able to hug mum and dad any time I want 💗 lunch in the summerhouse with the sound of the waterfall going into the pond 💗 Tommy cuddles 💗 online quizes coming out of my ears 💗 stopping off to watch tiny lambs in the fields for a moment 💗 lots of Zoom catch ups 💗 planning more Zoom catch ups 💗 new projects and new challenges 💗 getting back into puzzle books and colouring in 💗 rocking my new lilac tracksuit loungewear 💗 knowing it's Thursday thanks to Frank Turner doing his weekly live gig on Facebook (missing gigs and wrestling soooo much right now) 💗 the "clap for carers" moment at 8pm every Thursday and seeing th...

Well first big news is.... the house sale completed yesterday! Was a bittersweet feeling but I know it's for the best. It sucked not being around to help Adam tidy the house and hand the keys over but in a way it probably made it slightly easier to distance myself from it all up here. I'm so thankful to have my little haven at my folks now more than ever, it's the only little spot I've got at the moment, I've got no official home and a nice amount of money in my bank account. Now just need to steer clear of ASOS! Work called me yesterday to say I've been furloughed for another 2 or 3 weeks at least so I'm glad to have a rough plan even though everything keeps changing and who knows how long it'll all last. I treated myself to a dot to dot mindfulness mandalas book and it's so addictive! I'm off to sit in the summerhouse, with the doors open wide, a rock night playlist blasting out, my dot to dot and a cuppa! Keep staying safe and have a goo...

I've realised I need to escape to KtPland more than I thought. I'm so lucky that I get to be with my folks and Tommy, but there's only so much of their tv choices and music I can listen to before I find myself moping on the sofa scrolling through Instagram. Now my tv is all set up and I have Netflix in my bedroom I need to start taking myself up there to watch my "trash" programs and catching up on YouTube bits, Jenna Marbles I miss you! I also need to make more use of the summer house for podcasts, reading and letter writing. I've got it in my head that I don't like my own company so I need to be around everyone all the time, but maybe I don't,  maybe I do need "me time" every now and then.  Right the sun's out, I've got my book, Grazia and a cuppa, I'm off to chill. Ttfn x

Feeling weird today. Woke up today with that horrible feeling in the pit of my stomach. The past week has kind of felt like I was just on holiday and that everything would be back to normal in a week or so. I feel like it's just hit me again that we have no idea how long this will go on for and although I have my folks around me and friends online I just feel so very very lonely and isolated. Lots of people are happy staying in and relaxing but I'm missing my gigs, the wrestling, eating out, going to the pub and seeing lots of different people along the way. I've had some video chats, Houseparty games, Zoom silliness and phone calls but they're just not the same. I know there's nothing I can do about it and I just sound like a Moaning Minnie but I just needed to get it off my chest. Bleugh. Ttfn x